Mary blogs at: Micah's Gift she is basically the reason for the title of the blog. (Don't worry I will explain) Thank you so much Mary and Micah! Stop by her blog and have your babies name written on a blade of growing grass. I look forward to getting mine :)
Jamie blogs at: Forget Me Not, Oh Lord. She has a wonderful heart and I look forward to reading more about her through her journey. It's so sad that so many wonderful people need to meet this way but if we can help each other I know there is something to be gained from this journey of sadness.
If you get a chance and you have not done so yet - please request a dove - they are free of charge and it makes me happy to make them for others :)
Without further ado.... Our babies now have names. When I read Mary's story she mentioned that it made her sad to think of her baby sitting up in heaven without a name. That got me thinking. Why didn't my babies have names? Of course the logical reason would be well we had no idea what the sex of either was. Neither did Mary - but she was right - I felt bad that my babies were sitting in heaven with no names. I felt bad that when I talk to them they were Baby Malloy or Baby Bean or baby #1 or #2. It was awkward and in my silent prayers or typed out blogs I should not feel awkward. Now I know that they have names. I hope that God let them know :) So the former "Baby Malloy or baby #1" will now and forever be named RILEY and the former "Baby Bean or baby #2" will now and forever be named PEYTON. I am happy they have names. It made me smile as soon as we decided. Now I have to order charms with their precious names on them.
One of my relatives wrote me a message on facebook... hopefully she will not mind that I am posting what she said - but it was so great I could not help it.
As a back story she is married to one of my cousins (I have many LOL) and she is also currently pregnant. Before the church service on Sunday I managed to get the nerve to go up to her and hug her and congratulate her. Shocking that I could do that - but I did - without her even knowing it was difficult. Though she probably realized it was after hearing me sing on Sunday.
This is what she wrote me today:
Your song was beautiful yesterday...and I love your hair. I am sort of ashamed to admit this but having never been in your situation and not really knowing many people that (openly) have been, I have been one of those that don't really understand and would think can't you just try again? The kind of person that would probably really really tick you off...so though it may not have been what you were going for, watching you sing yesterday and seeing Nate and your emotions as you left the church when you were finished, I get it now. Your loss was very real.
Though I will never ever ever understand why this happens and am so angry that you are suffering right now - I am absolutely positive that you will be a beautiful mom to babies that we can hold in our arms someday.
Thank you for the sweet compliments. I was happy with the song and thanking God all day that I made it through it without crying. I love my hair too LOL - thanks ;)
I pray that I will have babies in my arms on Earth every single day. I have prayed that for years but since Feb. and even more since Aug. I have prayed even harder. Thank you again!