Monday, December 6, 2010

Practicing life

I am out of practice with life. But I am working my way back in. As I wrote in my last post I went out for my friends bachelorette party. It was a good time. It ended with some issues but I am happy to say that none of those issues had anything to do with me. I believe I cam off as a normally social person. Shocking I know! It was for me too!

Anyways I am not sure if any of my readers watch the show The Practice but it BEYOND pissed me off (excuse my 'wording')! It was about a woman who comes into the hospital pregnant on a regular basis who is a drug addict and they PAY her to take her baby. In the episode they mentioned that it had happened 4 other times. EACH time the baby LIVED but with some sort of problem due to her neglect. The baby was put into foster care each time. So THIS time the woman comes in and has not been using drugs and the baby is born completely healthy so guess what? THIS time she wants MORE money because the baby is healthy. She won't even look at her baby and accepts $1000 and signs all rights away to her child.

The sad thing is THIS happens. People give up their children for money. People give up their children for much less, for nothing most of the time. This woman (and yes I know it is a tv show) would not even GLANCE at HER BABY. There are people all over the world doing drugs and all sorts of crap and THEY have no issues having a baby. It makes me SICK! Here I am doing everything RIGHT and both my children die. I wanted to scream bloody murder the whole episode!

It seems as though sooner or later the whole fairness of life will have to work to our benefit. Odds are sooner (hopefully) or later things will get better. I would love an It's a Wonderful Life moment. I would love to see how everything that has happened to me in my life and how that has effected others lives. I know deep down that it has but it would be nice to see it. Nice to know for sure that all I have been through has meant something to other people too.

Anyways here's to 2011 looking better for all of us after we survive the holiday season.

Riley & Peyton momma loves you and I think of you every second of every day.


  1. You've definetly affected my life in a positive way! I'm glad to know you, friend!


  2. Oh, I don't think I could have watched that episode. That would have made me FURIOUS! I stopped watching that show a long time ago when one of the characters was pregnant and was attacked. Both her and her baby lived and ended up being okay, but she couldn't/wouldn't take care of her baby. She wouldn't/couldn't conect with him. Then she abandoned him! How could any mother do that? I just didn't understand because I would have held that boy so tight and never let him go. So, I just couldn't watch that show anymore.

    I am praying for your "It's a Wonderful Life" moment to happen sooner rather than later. I am praying that 2011 brings you and your husband the employment that you need. Even more importantly than that, I am praying that 2011 brings you a squirmy newborn in your arms. I really do feel that it will happen and you better believe that I am praying my heart out for it. God willing, we will both have our 2011 rainbows. I want you to know that your love and support has made a big difference in my life. You were one of the first people to show me that people really do care and that my precious Micah matters to people other than me and my family. You gave me that precious green plaque with Micah's name on it. It is the only thing that I have ever been sent with my baby's name on it. I never got to get a birth certificate or any other legal document saying that my baby was here. To me that plaque IS my "legal document" saying that my baby was here. It means more to me than I could ever explain! You and both of your babies have deeply touched my heart. I assure you that what you have gone through has meant something to me. You have been a true blessing to my life. If I were there with you, I would go to every appointment you are going to have. It wouldn't matter what else I had to do in my day. I would be right there for you. That is how important you and your precious babies are to me. Please know that you and your precious babies have made a difference in my life!


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